Ah,,,,

我が命の

全けむ限り

忘れめや

いや日に異には

思ひ増すとも

私がこの世に生きている限り、あの方を忘れる事があるでしょうか。

日増しにますます恋しさの募ってゆく事はあっても。

au secours.....

Pourquoi ce sentiment de solitude ?

J'en ai plein le dos moi-même. 

Je suis trop intelligent. 

Je sus tout. 

Il n'y a avait pas besoin de ça. 

Today’s Feeling

I feel like operating an excavators. However, I can’t do that. 

Next to my apartment is under the construction so there are some excavators there. 

It seems so much fun if it was not a job!

This is a side note, they are building my new apartment :)

The Toilet Season Has Finished

It's the beginning of the fall season I like. Yay!

Every time when I went out or opened the window, I smelled a fragrant olive this season. It is not so bad, but the smell is too strong for me and like a toilet fragrance. So I feel that the toilet season began at this time every year.

I can't see its trees anywhere around my house, but I can smell its fragrance. You can imagine how strong the smell is, can't you?

Last week, it rained a few days so the flowers of the fragrant olive have fallen. That's why I don't smell it any more!

The toilet season was supposed to finish, but I bought some hair cream a few days ago and it smells like a toilet fragrance. -_-...

My head smelled like a toilet all day yesterday. Unless I throw it away, the toilet season will start again.

Fatigue

People tend to want to eat sweet foods when they are mentally fatigued. On the other hand, people tend to want to eat salty foods when they are physically fatigued.

Does this description fit you?

I want both now. Meaning that I'm exhausted. 

As I wrote here before, these days I can’t sleep well because of my concern. 

Nightmare!

そうですね、確かに。。。

いつかふたりになるためのひとり

やがてひとりになるためのふたり

The Conversation That Shows How Bad My situation Was

Since I got a voice mail from my boss, I called him back.
The following is our conversation.

Me: Hello. I listened to your voice mail now.
Boss: I have a favor to ask you.
Me: Are you driving? I’ll call you later.
Boss: That’s okay. I can keep talking. I want you to do some extra work this weekend blah blah blah...
Me: Ugh... again? Then I’ll...

I then heard the sound of a crash.

Boss: Aaaahhhhh!!!!

Me: Hello? Hello? Hellooooo?
Boss: ..................



Oh, shoot!!    (ﾟ□ﾟ;)!!!!!

After a few hours I got a call from him. As I had imagined, he got into a car accident. I was really worried about him until his call because I thought I might have killed him. I felt that those few hours lasted quite longer than the actual amount of time that passed.

He was in a road junction of highways, but the car in front of him couldn’t join it and stopped, so he hit the car. Usually, nobody stops there!
Both drivers were uninjured. After hearing that, I felt greatly relieved. However, both cars were obviously damaged. He said that the car accident was not my fault, and he can cover the expense with his insurance, but I’m still feeling some responsibility. Ahhhh, I have to meet him tomorrow. I don’t know how I can face him. Next time, even if someone says while driving, “I can keep talking”, I won’t talk!!

I’m glad if you also learned something from reading this entry.

My Recent Odd Behaviour

I haven't sleep well recently because my brain is full of concern. So I'm often half-asleep, especially in the morning.

One morning, I found myself standing in the bathroom holding dishes. I realised that when I was taking dishes for breakfast back, I had passed by the kitchen and gone to the bathroom. After washing the dishes, I was trying to pour water into rubber gloves. Probably, I was still in a dream.

One evening, when I returned home after drinking with my friends, I tried to send an email saying "I really like you" to my special someone. How stupid I am! I had decided that I would never tell him that. This is a long, sad story...

Anyway, deciding never to tell my "special someone" that I like him seems odder than any of the other actions I described, right?

The Painting That I Shed Tears

One of my favorite painter is Klimt because his works include a lot of Japanese elements I like, so when I went to NY, I went to Neue gallery, which also has a delicious restaurant. :p However, the painting that I shed tears was not Klimt’s one. At last I saw a moving painting in a Metropolitan museum.

I stood there motionless while I looked at Claude Monet’s “Ice Floes” and I tried hard to hold back my tears. Honestly, I had not been moved by paintings before that day. The next moment a curator said, "We are closing soon." I was looking at the same painting until the museum closed! No way!

Until then, I didn't know why his works are so popular and privately, I had been thinking with no confidence that Monet had bad sight because almost his works are vague colors.

I didn’t know why I was moved so much. Now I looked at the picture on the internet, but I couldn’t feel anything. The real thing has power which we can’t see.

Peut-on rire de tout?

Oui?   Non?

Je dois terminer une dissertation ce soir.