Temporary Motivation to Improve English

I missed a rare chance!!
I declined an interview from Russian National Broadcasting on the spur of the moment.
Since the interviewer was speaking English,
I was probably afraid to speak English in front of a camera,
but there are seldom chances like this so now I regret it a little.
Afterwards, I felt like I wanted to study English more to
have more confidence in my speaking ability.
I will probably forget what I felt today soon after I post this note because
I know that I always have the recurring thoughts only right after this kind of event.



How regrettable I asm in both ways....