Scared

This past Sunday, it was cold and I saw someone faint at a platform in Shibuya, Tokyo.
When he got off the train, he fell down while leaning on a woman.
When I saw this, I thought to myself that
"I need to save him! Oh wait, can I really do that? What if he is dead?
I have to call 911 too.
OH Nooooo..... my friend is talking on my mobile phone way over there so I don't have it.
Ummmm many people are closer to him than I am
so should I say in a loud voice 'Is there a doctor?' instead of helping?"
The next moment, i thought "what am I doing???"
I should save him first without thinking!!!"
After I tired checking his pulse and breathing, tapping him on the shoulder,
talking to him loudly and tapping his face,
he wake up and walked away without saying anything,
even though I told him he shouldn't have moved yet.

I can't even imagine how long it lasted because
every single moment felt like it was in super slow motion.
I think there were around 40 people there.
They were just staring at him lying on the floor and
did nothing even that woman who must have noticed him first.
I was disappointed at them and even at myself
 because I couldn't save him soon after he fainted.
I feel like I was thinking too much until I approached so
I hope I didn't talk to myself for so long time.
This phenomenon is very Tokyo-ish.

I've seen some people on a train who went into convulsions or were foaming at the mouth.
They were already given aid so there was nothing I could do.
I'm still scared because there's a chance that I might run into a similar situation again
and won't have the skills to help.